i just noticed that, there is no boy who could change what i feel for him. and its HIM not him... i dont like him anymore i like HIM still :(

i have been lying to myself all the time i guess.
i was just wondering right now what's so wrong about me?
because..
i have been loving someone for 5 months and now i just noticed that all the time, it was just bullshit in my head!
nothing about it was true.
he had nothing good about him.
he wasnt the best ever.
he wasnt nice to me and i know that.
he wasnt even smart and IT COUNTS ok.
no dude, i mean like....
i think i have an 'obsession problem'
you know like haha shit i think im making that up but no its actually true.

when i cant have someone, i do anything to have them;
and if i still cant have them,
i cry i nearly die and i tell everyone im depressed.
yeah well thats really stupid but it's true though.
but when i can have someone;
i just DONT GIVE A SHIT about them.
and it's mean.
stupid.
immature.
grrrrr.
but it's TRUE and i know it..
because when i could have chris i was just not caring much at all about him but when he just left me i got so depressed; well i mean.. i missed him.
i cried everyday LITTTTTERRALLY EVERY FUCKING DAY.
and then once i got him back;
but i broke up with him HAHAHA ;L;
because im stupid. that's why..
cause then after breaking up with him he just;
didnt give a shit about me anymore,
he probs was disappointed about me ay.
and then what did i do?
i kept crying AGAIN.
i just turned emo *seriously dude it was weird.*
i DIED.
and then i went out with blake; (L);
and i actually liked blake.
i did.. i really did.
but i couldnt take it because it's just ..
i dont know.
when i was going out with blake i was having LOTS. of problems and seriously it was bad and i kept crying everyday but i couldnt tell him and then i kept getting sad and sad and he was like oh what happened and i didn't want to tell him i was like '' dw its all good '' and then i just told him i didnt want to go out with him.
but geez, he is perfect.
he is the only guy i can go out with and i know that.
i even wanted to marry him SERIOUSLY I DID. HAHA
but like, while i was LOVING blake I was LOVING chris and chris was the one who didnt give a shit about me so me the stupid bitch here just broke up with blake because he was too easy for me.
and then yerr... but now its just ALL THE OBSESSION THINGY coming again.. like,
blake he is just not being my friend.
when i talk to him he ignores me its just really annoying because i WANT ATTENTION and he doesnt give a fuck.
and while he doesnt give a fuck it makes me like him more.
and more.
and more.
and more.
but i dont want it to get bigger as it was with chris,
but he does the same stuff as chris used to do!
its making me scared though because i know he is good really good arrrrrrgh shit



RESUMING EVERYTHING I JUST SAID;
i want what i cant have, when i have it i just give it away, but then i cant have it again, and i cry and cry and i still cant have it'; then i die and the story ends thank you i need to grow up.

loser group is the shit AY

you love her;
but you just like me.
GRRRRRRRRRR GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

YOU'RE NOT HOT! you're cute :)
you don't lie! you just show me the reality.

fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it ahahahahahahahaa no...im feeling mean now shit, gosh i just did some shit AGAIN omg i always hurt people's feelings :( i just did a big mistake
GEEEEEZ i always make mistakes its not normal




you know a lot of boys think i like them but
you're the only one
you will be up on anything
because you're the best one right
you're the fucking best and it always will be the same.
always the one i will like better on anything
you can have my heart
you can have everything
because i know you worth it
everything im doing, everything im going through..
you worth it.
you will be up on anything babe.
you make me feel happy even when i am sad
you make my heart go crazy
you make my life go happy
and you make me smile
you know some guys think i like them but
you're the only one.
you will be up on anything.
you make me feel better
you make me feel the best
you make my heart go crazy
and you make me go crazy as well.
i will be always there
always when you need me i will be there for you
you're perfect.
i cant see anything wrong with you.
well maybe you dont feel the same about me but
i dont care
you will always be up on anything
i love you,
i love your hair,
i love your eyes,
i love your smile!
i love the way you talk
i love the way you joke
i love everything
but i dont love the way you treat me..
but its ok because it doesnt matter ok
it will not change anything.
i had to notice by myself how much i needed you.
you will be up on anything!
you will always be the best
you will always be the one
you will always be the one i ever wanted.
it doesnt change.
it will never change.
my love for you is forever and forever doesnt end.
im sorry if i sound weird but
baby you will be always up on anything!
because you're the best!
my friends told me i had an obssesion,
i told them i was in love.
when i met you my heart told me what love meant.
love means everything for you,
it means that it's good but it can be bad,
it can be really sad,
it's really sad for me right now but i'm smilling,
because i know you're the best,
now i found out why the other guys are never the same as you,
the other guys always sound stupid,
the other guys always sound gay,
the other guys always sound dumb,
the other guys never sound like you.
the way you are, the way you were
and the way you will be are always the best.
im sorry if im crazy for you but
why would i not be if you are so perfect?
why would i not love you?
because you dont love me?
but i know one day you will!
im the best for you,
its from another life,
thats why its so big,
thats why it will never end!
its like up on anything,
i would give up my life for you.
i would do anything for you.
because you are the best.
the best i ever had.
and the best i will have again.
because i can!
because i want!
and because i will!
i can spend whatever on it
i can do anything for it!
it will always worth it.
you worth anything.
you make me love,
you make me happy,
you can make me sad but
it will worth it in the end
because i came here to love you
and you came here to love me
i know it,
i bet you i'm right.
my love is bigger than anything.
its sweeter than anything.
i love you baby.
because you can make me smile even when im crying
you can make me smile when im sad
you can be the best even if you're not
you are the only one
the only one who will always be up on anything.
the only one that i can actually love.
because you showed me what love meant and now i know what love is
and i know love doesnt end.
real love doesnt end.
you're the half of heart i need
you're what i need
you're what i want!
you are the one i will always miss
you are the one i will always cry for
you are the one i will always love
it's true,
it hurts me but it's true!
i know its true.
i know we should be together.
i know we will grow up together!
i know i met you in another life and
i know i'm here to make you happy again.
yes i sound crazy,
yes i sound stupid,
yes i sound really gay but
it's true.
its bigger then anything,
you will be up on anything,
you will always be the best one.
i can tell you.
you are the best ever. and
you will always be...

























TUESDAY 16/02/2010.

today, i woke up thinking of you and wondering why i let you go
and you didnt come back to me,
i wish i was in ur arms, i wish i was with you, i wish you could
love me and i wonder why you dont,
i think bout dying i think of you when im crying, i cried for
you yesterday
im crying for you today i will cry for you tomorrow
i guess ur everything i need to have, i guess ur all i ever wanted,
i guess im gonna die loving you, coz i already live loving you
and it doesnt stop,
its not just a crush, its not just a guy, its not just a summer love,
its more than that, its everything to me,
i would kill for you, i would die for you, i would do anything anything ANYTHING for you,
i would do anything to have you, and im dying for you,
i gave you my heart, and you broke it
i told you my feelings and you laughed at it,
i gave you my life and u fucked it
i lost my friends coz of you
i changed the way i dress for you
i changed the way i am for you
i cant even go to the park with my dog anymore coz when i go there the only thing in my mind
is you, and everything you did, and how many times i cried!
you have no idea how many times i cried!
you have no idea how many times i said i was gonna die!
you have no idea how much i want to die!
you have no idea why i love you,
but i do, you're everything to me!
i just wish i was everything to you, i wish you even liked me,
now my best friend is my ipod,
my clothes are black,
my ''friends'' dont talk to me!
i dont sleep!
i dont talk!
i dont have friends!
i dont have a life!
CUZ I GAVE IT TO YOU, AND I FELL FOR YOU!
AND YOU, YOU DIDNT CARE! YOU IGNORED!
YOU TOLD ME TO FUCK OFF!
YOU TOLD ME I WAS ANNOYING!
YOU TOLD ME I WAS A STALKER!
YOU TOLD ME I WAS STUPID!
YOU TOLD ME I SHOULD DIE!
YOU TOLD ME I WAS IMMATURE!
YOU TOLD ME I WAS BULLSHIT!
YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED SOMEONE ELSE!
YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD NEVER LIKE ME!
YOU TOLD ME HOW BAD HOW STUPID HOW USELESS HOW ANNOYING HOW IMMATURE HOW UGLY AND EVERYTHING
YOU JUST WANT ME TO DIE!
YOU WANT THE PERSON WHO MOST LOVE YOU IN THE WHOLE WORLD TO DIE!
AND YOU DO, FOR NO REASON BUT YOU DO!
YOU CANT UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING I HAD TO DO FOR YOU
YOU CANT UNDERSTAND HOW SAD IM
AND I BLAME IT ON YOU!
I BLAME IT ON YOU, COZ YOU'RE PERFECT!
I BLAME IT ON YOU COZ UR ALL I EVER WANTED!
I BLAME IT ON YOU COZ UR CUTE
I BLAME IT ON YOU COZ UR FUNNY
I BLAME IT ON YOU COZ UR NICE
I BLAME IT ON YOU COZ U FORGOT ME
I BLAME IT ON YOU COZ ALWAYS WHEN I LISTEN TO BEST I EVER HAD I WANT TO DIE!
I BLAME IT ON YOU COZ YOU MADE ME HAPPY AND YOU COULD MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST PERSON EVER!
I BLAME IT ON YOU COZ THE ONLY PERSON I COULD EVER FALL IN LOVE WITH IS YOU!!
YOU! YOU! AND YOU!
UR THE ONLY ONE!
UR THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE ME HAPPY!
BUT YOU DONT WANT TO!
YOU WANT TO MAKE ME REAL SAD!
I KNOW IT, I KNOW THAT IM NOT THE BEST FOR YOU,
I KNOW THAT YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN ME,
AND I KNOW THAT UR NEVER GONNA LOVE ME.
But the other thing i know is that i will always love you, and you're the
only guy i could ever die for, i could give my life for, i could kill for,
i could cry for, i could do anything for.
Just telling you, how much i need you.
I'm so sorry, im so so so sorry for meeting you and loving you,
umm i hope i get over it, but i know i cant, coz ur everything !
YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO ME! OK, EVERYTHING. I REALLY MEAN IT!
today i was at my mums friends house, and there was a guy who was smelling really good.. and yea im weird and
talk bout ppls smell lol and like he smelt like u do, it was weird, and in the same moment when that guy came
i was listening to best i ever had, just to fuck it more you know
then, i told my mum i wanted to go home coz i couldnt stay there
coz i couldnt do anything
and i did it coz i couldnt stop thinking of you when that guy was next to me
i dont know what to do anymore, i really dont
i pretty much think the only thing i can do to forget you is die.
and maybe, im gonna die, coz the way i told you i would always love you and i do,
i am telling you i would die for you and i will,
its like the only thing i can do right now! its the only thing that matters to me!
its you!
its you!
i love you
i love the way you talk and you know it
i love the way you act and you know it
i love the way you are and you know it
i love your hair and you know it
i love your smell and you know it lol
i loved when you used to texted me each 5 minutes and i used to text you the whole day
i loved when i met you
i loved when i told you i loved you
i loved you when we went to the park that day and i told you to yell penis if you loved me and you did lol
and then after all that, my best friend amy hated me, she hated me coz she knew you were everything to me,
and now im crying, and now im dying, and now im wondering why cant you love me :(
i seriously cant do anything anymore, i just cant, i go to my friends house and i talk about you.
i dont sleep anymore
i dont talk anymore
and when i talk its about you
when i cry its for you
when die its for you
when i think im thinking of you
when i go out with someone i just wish SO MUCH you were that person!
when i tell some guy i love him, i dont.
everyday when i wake up,
i say '' today im gonna stop loving him, today i hate him and today im not gonna try to talk to him! ''
when i say that, im lying to myself,
when i say something bad about you
im lying to myself
when i say i love you its the biggest truth ever,
when i say ur everything to me im not lying, you are.
you are everything i need
you are everything i love
you are everything i always wanted
but i cant have it,
i really changed like REALLY DID
im not funny as i used to be
i dont dress like i used to dress coz i know you dont like it
my hair looks like emo,
my mum said i have to eat, but i dont, and when i do i want to vomit
my friends said i have a problem, its not just a problem its an obssesion!
and its you,
why do i love you?
why are you everything?
why are you so cute?
and why are you so perfect?
and why cant you love me like other people do?
well, i know why i guess..
coz for you im stupid
coz for you im useless
coz for you im bullshit
coz for you im immature
coz for you im nothing
coz for you im not even a good friend
coz for you im ugly
and coz for you, im not enough.


im not even gonna send this to you, coz i know you wont read it, and i know you're never gonna know how much i love you and
like, im trying to stop crying, im trying to stop dying, im trying to eat, im trying to forget you,
im trying to make new friends, im trying to sleep, im trying to be the way i used to be, the problem is that i cant. :(
ok, i think its all i wanted to say.

i dont know what to write anymore, like omgggg i keep writting about
him but i dont want to and i dont
mean to :(
like, its weird how much i love him, sometimes i get crazy,
sometimes i cry and it makes me sad it makes me feel bad you know..
its like, he doesnt care at all, he acts like i dont mean anything and
i actually dont mean anything to himmm :(
i think he hates me,
but he doesnt have reasons to!
he doesnt need to make me feel bad just because he is feeling bad.
i cant sleep i cant just live my life again!
i cant have my friends back
and i have no idea how i left my friends just because of a guy!
I CANT BELIEVE HOW MUCH HE MEANS TO ME
I HAVE NO IDEA WHY BUT I KNOW HE MEANS MORE THAN
ANYTHING
i know he is not mine but i know he needs to be!
its like that! he needs to be mine and he needs to love me!
thats why we were born, to love eachother........... ):
please YOU love me!
i beg you
i do anything you want
i already did anything to have you but u didnt want me!
whats wrong with me aye
i dont know.. i really dont know whats wrong with me,..
i just know that im annoying for you
im ugly for you
im not enough for you
im stupid for you
im useless for you
im everything as bad as it can be for you!
why cant you see me? why cant you just love me backkkkk, thats all i ever wanted, to see you smilling and
looking at me and saying '' i love you '' and i would know you
mean it!
but you cant, you wont, and you dont want to .
you dont love me for some reason
im not ugly, there is millions of people out there uglier than me!
im not annoying, there is lots of people who say im not!
im not perfect, i know im not, no one is perfect but please dont be
perfectionist
I LOVE YOU.
PLEASE LOVE ME
please please please!
boy please be mine!
just please give me a hug
just please give me your loveeeeeeeee,
thats all i want,
i want your love and i want it now
i wanna love you i wanna kiss you i wanna hug you i wanna touch you
anything for you
whenever
wherever
however........................
im feeling sad inside now,
its your fault and please talk to me
please dont ignore me,
last week i had a fight with my mum and i went running to the
bathroom and i really was gonna cut myself
so my mum just went inside and started yelling at me
it sucks that i know i didnt want to die because of my fights with
my mum
i wanted to die because.......... because........ i just.. i dont know
maybe god just said '' you need to love him, but he doesnt
love
you and you will die for it '' ????
well i dont think god would do that
maybe god said '' you will love him, he wont love you but one
day he will notice how important you are and he will
ask everyday himself why he didnt love you when you loved him ''
well.. i would like god to say that aye
but i dont think he did
i dont know ok im confused im sad im afraid and im afraid of love, i
notice that love can do anything, it changes ANYTHING
it makes u sad and makes u happy, it makes you shy it makes you
cry, it makes you smile and it stays for a while.
i wanna see you, just seeing you would make me
happpppppy. :(
i dont know what to do, gosh, please god help me! i dont wanna cry
i dont wanna feel sad anymore!
PLEASE MAKE HIM LIKE ME, GOD PLEEEEEEASE MAKE
HIM NOTICE THAT IM THE ONE FOR HIM!
MAKE HIM THINK ABOUT ME THE WHOLE NIGHT TODAY
AND MAKE HIM LOVE ME !
MAKE HIM CRAZY ABOUT ME
PLEEEEASE MAKE HIM LOVE ME
I NEED HIM TO BE MINE
OR I CAN EVEN DIE.
i wasnt eating sometime ago, now i cant stop eating.
my mum said im suicidle and i said no im not
and she said yes you are and you're
depressed and i was like wth?
and she said that im getting depressed and
she doesnt know why but she noticed it.
im scared, god, im really sad, because i feel
like i wanna die and i dont want to,
i dont know, its confusing
sometimes im happy but then i think about him and everything
goes sad,
everything gets mad
everything sucks.
i need help, i need help from my friends, my parents, everything
because i know im getting sick im getting sick of my sadness
im getting sick of being sick
i dont wanna LOVE!
I REALLY WANT TO STOP LOVING!
LOVING MAKES ME SICK!
IT MAKES ME EAT MUCH
AND SOMETIMES MAKES ME STAY WITHOUT EATING FOR
DAYS
I CAN DIE
I CAN CRY
I CAN TRY
AND IT WONT WORK!
listening to sad music and thinking about him i do all the time!
its not normal, its REALLY bad, pleeeeease
help me pleaaaaasseeee
make him look at me and say '' i think i love her ''
make him fall for me!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
PLEASE
ill do anything for it
ill never yell at anyone !
ill never have fights with my mum
ill be perfect at school
i wont do anything wrong
i wont lie i wont cry
i just want him to be mine
please make my wish be true
please make him mine
its all i want
and if u make him mine ill be the happiest girl ever
ill be like seriously REALLY happy,
you dont know how much i love him its crazy its stupid its weird its
DIFFERENT.
its not a crush, its not a summer love, its not love, its like when
you can do anything for someone
and its true
i MEAN IT
i really mean it
like, you know when you feel sad for no
reason and then you start
crying and still think its for no reason
but then your heart beats and says someones name?
then you get like ooooh i think thats why im crying, im crying
because of him.
i want to be perfect i think, maybe if im perfect he will like me :(
you and me make everything perfect, pleeeeeeeease BE MINE,
ill die for you
if you want me to.
i can do anything for you
and i mean it
its everything for me
everything for me is you
and you are everything,
i bet i love you more than your mum does haha
i love you more than
anything :(
its not funny, its not to make anyone laugh reading this, its really serious, its bad really bad its like
when you want to die.
i cant change my love for you, i cant just say '' i dont love him
anymore '' because I DO!
and i said i wouldnt like you anymore more than
120000000000000 million times and it didnt work.
i never thought i would love,
i never thought i would know what love meant,
but now i do, and its weird, because its a feeling
that can change
anything you know,
its like when someone means everything to you,
and that person sometimes loves you but this love is not
big its not enough to you,
its sad when you love, to me its like dying, loving is a
different way of saying dying,
why am i in tears? i just need you here
i just need your love more than anything,
words cant describe everything i feel and felt for you
its like the BIGGEST LOVE ever.
its! seriously you mean anything to me
if someone asked me what i most loved in the whole world
i would say '' my parents of course '' but i actually
would say your name, if i could, if i wasnt embarrassed to say it.
god, what do i do??????
please tell me what to do!
please change his mind
HE LOVES ME
HE WILL LOVE ME TOMORROW
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS
HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT FOR ALWAYS

the things i hate about you.




i hate the way you stare.
i hate the way you dont even care.


ok

i hate the way you ''play''
and even more how you dont stay.



i hate your smile
i hate your hair

i hate when i see you and i get no air.



i hate the way you think,
and the way you wink.

the way you think makes me angry, the way you wink makes me
nervous.




i hate the way you forget,
and the way i want to hug you and you wont let.


i hate how much you're afraid,
to love in my own way.


i hate how you hate chocolate,
and how sweet you still are.

i hate your hates,
and i still hate your loves.



i hate the way you like same things as me,
i hate the way you dont see it.



i hate how you lie,
and how you're not mine.



i hate the way you made me cry,
and the way you didnt try.




i hate how you make me feel, and even how i like you still.


i hate your drugs
but you are mine.



i hate how you flirt
and how you are such a jerk.



i hate how i hate you,
and even more how i love you.


i hate so much your lies and how you make me cries.

i hate that bullshit you made me go through,
i hate the shit my life turned to because of you.




i hate your jokes,
i hate what you chose.


i hate your hugs,
and how i wish to heard your words.



i hate the way you used me,
and i hate the reason i didnt use you.


i hate how you ignore,
and i hate how you're always not sure.

i hate how i annoy you,
and how much you say that.



i hate why you cant be next to me,
and hate how you dont kiss me.

i hate how you love her,
i hate how im better than her.

i hate how you act,
i hate how you make me feel.



i hate how you always do that,
and i hate that im afraid you always will.


i hate that she loves you,
i hate that i love you more.
i hate that you dont love both.



maybe i hate everything on you,
or maybe im just lying that i hate you.




i hate that i loved you,
i hate that i love you,
and i hate the reason you make me love you,

i hate the reason that you're perfect, i hate that you're not mine.



i hate how i tried,
i hate how i cried.





i hate how much i love you,
and how much i need you.

i wish there was time for us.
why did you erase what happened?
why did you just forget me like i was nothing?
i loved you, i still do, i always will.......

there is no me without you,
you means everything
your the only one
your the love i need
your the one i want
your the hugger i like
your the one who makes me change
the one who makes me sad
the one who makes me happy
the one who i love
the one who will always be in my heart
the one who i dont see anymore
the one who doesnt love me
the one who doesnt change
your just the best
when im a mess
ur the one who makes me feel beautiful
even though im not good enough
your the one i dont have anymore.
your the one i miss
the one i wish i had
i thought u were perfect
never had a choice to change it
crashed to your loving way
i need to love you its just unbelievable
how it doesnt change
i need ur smile
i need uuuuuuuuuuuuu

im thinking of chris right now haha ummm wow im listening to
best i ever had so thats probs why im thinking of him though.
i would like to have enough words to represent how much i love you..
i would like to show you how much i cried.
and tell you how much you meant.
i dont know what happened but things just changed.
nothing is the same.
my love for you is just...a crush?
ummmmmm when i think of you my body goes just i dont know
it seens like im dreaming, floating or something...
baby you're my everything
you're what i ever wanted
we can do it real big

bigger than u ever done it
you will be up in anything
ahhaah that song is just...perfect.
i miss when you used to say that that song was for me...
the fact is that i thought we could actually do it big
bigger than anything
i cant believe i fell for you.
agora aquele sentimento volta sabe,
eu fico.. eu nao sei parece que um ar profundo entra em mim
meu estomago fica gelado
nao tem como explicar
tudo que eu senti,
isso vai marcar,
mas pelo menos tu me fez crescer
crescer por fora e tambem por dentro..
eu era aquela menininha quando te conheci,
agora eu sou aquela mulher que sonha contigo.
eu cresci muito eu posso te falar...
aquelas noites chorando...?
elas me deixaram MAIS FORTE.
elas me mostraram que eu consigo passar por pior que isso.
que isso nao me derruba,
que eu ainda estou no topo.
que eu nunca vou me rebaixar por um homem.
nem por um menino como tu.
aqueles berros e emploracoes pra tu me amar..
nunca mais vai acontecer.
eh bom que tu entenda..
que tu vai ser o que vai chorar.
nos proximos tempos.
eu nao vou me rebaixar.
seja do meu nivel,
e voce vai entender,
que sentimentos existem e infelizmente eu tive por voce.
mas passou,
voce mudou...
tudo mudou, nao eh?
me deixa feliz que voce me mostrou,
que amor pode acontecer
que a magia existe..
mas ela acabou.
vou viver a minha vida,
quero ser feliz apartir de agora,
nao quero mais chorar,
e outra coisa...
se eu tivesse ficado mais tempo contigo.. talvez hoje eu nao seria quem eu sou.
talvez eu poderia ter feito coisas que eu me arrependeria.
me dado mais do que eu podia.
e outro problema eh que..
nos dois infelizmente pensamos igual.
ou pensavamos eu nao sei mas eu sei que tu pode entender..
o ruim eh que tu nao quer.
nao quer entender o que eu sinto ou senti..
eu nao sei se aquele amor por ti ainda existe,
mas sei que quando pensei disso minha barriga ficou gelada.
entrou aquele ar de novo, inacreditavel.
nao da pra acreditar que o mundo faz eu te amar.
eh engracado se tu pensar.. mas eh triste quando isso me faz chorar.
mas um dia.. eu posso te dizer.. um dia.. voce vai estar no meu lugar.
se eh que ja nao esta.. rs
porque aquela magia acabou?
porque aquele 'namoro' nao durou?
porque de noite eu fui quem chorou?
porque as mentiras me levaram a loucuras?
porque saudade nao traz felicidade?
eu lembro que tinha dias que eu ia pro parque chorar,
eu lembro daquela semana que eu fiquei sem internet
e todos os dias eu fiquei chorando porque tu terminou comigo
no dia que minha melhor amiga brigou comigo e foi tudo
por culpa dela.
mas agora eu rio porque BEM FEITO agora ela esta
sentindo o que eu senti
na verdade eu nao rio, porque eu nao sou ma.. mas
eu tenho motivos..
porque eh engracado,
o que ela fez pra mim..
agora aconteceu com ela. e provavelmente ela me entende,
ela deve ter chorado.. e deve muito ter lembrado do que ela fez pra mim.
toda vez que eu lembro de ti vem aquele sentimento
aquele ar profundo aquele magia...
a magia linda volta e fica por pouco tempo,
somente quando eu lembro de ti que eu tenho esse sentimento!
eh estranho explicar... eh mais estranho ainda amar... haha eu gosto de rimar >.>
e .. eu nao sei.. porque aconteceu mas eu TENHO CERTEZA que por
alguma razao muito importante eu te conheci,
tu foi muito importante na minha vida.
eu tenho certeza disso..
talvez no futuro eu vou te 'reconhecer' e a gente vai se gostar,
eu vou ser o que tu realmente 'quer' entende..
because everytime we touch i feel this feeling...
eu quero voce comigo mais que tudo,
o ruim eh que nao posso ter,
e o pior eh que eu vou sempre ter que entender...
o unico abraco de verdade que eu mais gostei foi o seu.
e provavelmente tu nem lembra do meu...
mas nao tem problema :)
eu vou recuperar aquele ar que eu te dei.
tu vai ser meu como tu deveria ser.
o passado nao nos deixou porque nao era a hora mas nao vai demorar..
um dia isso vai acontecer.......
tu vai ser meu e assim vai ser.
a gente pode se casar.. quem sabe? rs
mas nao sei...
talvez no futuro tu nao seja o que eu quero..
talvez tu nao trabalhe, talvez tu seja ninguem na vida
e eu vou te olhar e te falar.. '' eu te avisei, pra parar.. pra fazer certo e tu
nao aceitou '' ...
eu quero conhecer meninos novos agora..
quero conhecer pessoas melhores que tu.
e existe muitas.. eu posso te dizer..


eu queria te abracar sabe,,
muuiiiiiiiito que eu queria te cheirar hahaha
tu tem um cheiro tao bom, eu lembro disso....
eu lembro de tudo sobre ti..
assim mesmo sabendo que faz tempo que algo aconteceu..
minha loucura por ti nao acabou.
amor de verdade nao acaba.
isso que me da medo, eu nao acredito que tao cedo estou amando..
nao acredito que isso possa ser possivel..
A M O R .. uma palavra tao diferente, tao magica, tao alegre e triste ao mesmo
tempo... A seria de Alegria. M de Magica. O de Otimo. R de .. Rafaela haah umm
nao.. to brincando.. mas R poderia ser de hummmm.. Rebelde? Pode ser rs
As pessoas ficam rebeldes quando amam, elas ficam com aquela alegria inacreditavel, elas sentem a magica gelada, esse sentimento eh otimo.
rssssss eu amor escrever uau que estranho nem sabia que tinha uma paixao
assim para escrever......... :)
eu tava lendo conversas minhas e do chris de muuuuuuito
tempo atras tipo, uau..
que saudades de quando ele me tratava bem rs
que saudades de quando ele ate falava comigo
foda-se a proxima vez qe eu falar com ele eu vou dizer tudo que eu sinto
assim mesmo sabendo que ele nem vai dar bola mais tipo
ai cara
eh engracado eu ate ri agora mas tipo
eu tenho tantaaaaaaaaaaas saudades de quando ele era pra ser MEU.
sabe
tipo
ele eh
PERFEITO.
ele eh tudo que eu quero e tudo que eu nao quero tbm :(
eu acho que vou desser ir ver tv sei la to triste fiquei lendo umas conversas me deixou taoooo triste ai cara nao vou conseguir dormir agora :(
eu vi que... o chris me amava cara! serio! e eu amava ele..
mas a gente nunca podia ficar juntos entende :(
e dae agora.. ele me odeia, e eu amo ele.
e isso nao muda nada
e eu to aqui quase chorando na cama sem ninguem pra mandar mensagem
rs
:(
fudeu eu odeio *AMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO muio* ele. :(