love makes you cry, maybe it makes you smile but in the end it
makes you cry.
sometimes i want to die because i know i wanna stop to cry but
i cant because
i met you, and since that i loved you.
love means death, i bet it does.
i bet love is nothing
i bet its just a word that liars like to use
when you used to say you loved me i used to trust you.
now you say you hate me and i trust you more.
it sucks when you love,
it sucks when that person doesnt love you
and gosh i need you!
and please get it i love you.









You

You make me wanna cry.
You make me wanna die.
Sometimes it's funny but now saying that, it isn't.
It was good when i met you,
It was awesome when you lied that you loved me.
I used to love your lies,
They used to make me happy.
But when I saw the real you,
I cried.
I said I was gonna die!
It seems easy for you to say you dont love me.
But its hard for me to say i dont love you.
It seems easy for me to love you
But it seems hard for you to understand how much i want you next
to me.
It was funny when we played your game,
your game of lies,
it was funny when i used to trust you.
It was funnier when you made me cry!
It was more funny when i wanted to die.
You dont know how much i cried
You think you're perfect
and you think you're the best.
I'm sorry, but you made me see that
You're ugly.
You're not funny.
You're not a good person.
You're mean.
You smell like shit.
You don't know what love means.
You don't even know how to spell.


But Don't Worry baby I'm never gonna tell anyone that you
don't have anyfeelings.
I'm never gonna tell anyone how much I cried.
I used to cry every morning, every day, and every night.
Yes, It was Really sad.
It was sad when you left me.
It was sad when you lied to me.
It was sad when you used me.
And it was more sad when I saw everything that was happening and
I noticed that
I would do anything for you.
I would even try to kill myself for you. I actually tried to. :x
I would stop eating because of you.
I would loose all my real friends because of you.
I would notice that there is no me without you.
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry for trying to make you stay,
I'm sorry for crying for you.
I'm sorry for being scared of loving someone else because of you.
I'm sorry for being stupid.
I'm really sorry for being ugly.
I'm more sorry for not being funny.
I'm sorry for not being enough to you.
I just wanted you to know that I love you.


Because baby you're actually the best, maybe you're not the best
for some people but you are the best for rafa.
And when i grow up and if i see you i will run for you and tell you
that i never forgot you. And never will. Maybe that's not our time,
Maybe there is no
time for us. But, baby, you're not mine i guess, i wish you were!
i wish you were here
and i cry because of it. im sorry.

i changed my look to emo
i changed my smile to crying
i changed my friends to nothing
i changed pop to hip-hop
i changed my best friend to computer
i changed my healthy life to not eating
i changed the guy i liked for you
i changed my heart to broken and it worths nothing to you.



im not calling you baby anymore.
im not saying i love you anymore.
im not acting like i like you anymore.
im not changing my mind and my opnion about you till
you see that you love me.









im everything you could have and you still dont see it?!
i changed my friends and you still didnt want me.
i changed my clothes and you still didnt want me.
i changed my style and you still didnt want me.
i changed my life and you still didnt want me.
i changed my hair and you still didnt want me.
i changed my songs and you still didnt want me.
i changed my way to dance and you still didnt want me.
i changed my way to be and you still didnt want me.
i changed my way to talk and you still didnt want me.
i changed everything and you still dont want me.
what do i have to do?
i need to have wings?
i need to be the hottest girl in the world?
i need to be a nerd?
i need to be the best in sports?
i need to know how to sing?
i need to be the funniest person ever?
i need to be the most bitchy girl ever?
what do i need to be????
i need to be like.. her?
right?
is that what you want me to be?
you want me to be fat like her?
you want me to have pimples all over my face like her?
you want me to be ugly like her?
you want me to drink like her?
you want me to have sex like her?
you want me to be a slut like her?
you want me to..
you do...
but..
im not changing to that bad for you.

today i died.
i killed my feelings.
i died my heart.
i died.
and you killed me.
you destroyed my feelings.
you broke my heart.
you broke me,
you don't know what you did,
it seems easy not to love me,
but it seems hard to understand how much i love you.

im sorry for being immature
maybe im not but im still not good for you
maybe u think ur too good
or maybe im actually not enough
i dont know wats happening to me
first love?
maybe?
i dont know
i just know that it never ends
and never will
because ur
the
only
one
i
can
actually
love.
and
im
serious
i
dont
lie
to
you
i never did!
im sorry if ur not ready to have a relationship?
im sorry if u dont think im ready to have a relationship?
im sorry for loving u
im really sorry for not forgeting u !

one thing girls need to learn before they die.


BOYS ARE FOR MOMENTS!



... FRIENDS ARE FOR ALWAYS. =) hehehehehehee

its true because like if you notice boys worth NOTHING and
always in the end you will end up crying for them
because they are dickheads okok
lol some of them are not BUT
most are
so BEWARE of the DICKHEADS.
i always meet dickheads seriously,
and i always go out with dickheads as well.
seriously.
boys make me cry,
they make me try,
and then they make me wanna die.


omfgggg at school this year we are like having to make those really
annoying poems
and i need to make one about music like for next week
AND PLEASE HELP ME!
its a thingy called '' I hear the music '' and
we have to do a poem about that thingy and
the BEST ONE gets $400 dollars in cash!
i knowwww its lots of money aye lol and like yeah i really want it.
so please help me :D brb toilet
back
anyway i dont know why but like i really like to make
poems about boys
and i keep using the word ''cry'' a lot haha i think you noticed
btw lol
ok im gonna try to make a poem about a guy now ok ok lol dont laugh!

i love the way you stare,
even if you dont care.
i love the way you cut your hair.

i love the way you smile,
and even when i cry i still wish love meant you and i.

i feel sorry for you sometimes,
because you lie to me.

i feel sorry for me lots of times,
because when you lie you make me happy,
even when i wanna die.

but then in the end i end up wanting to cry,
because of you
because of your lies.

woooooooooooooooooooooooo, that was sad really sad im bad really
mad
but please dont tell my mum and dad. lol i had to say that!
goshhh that parody of tik tok makes meeee soooo mad really bad
fucking sad
ok sorry ahahahah
mad + sad + bad = raff with no you. lol

i miss your smile.
i miss your arms.
i miss your eyes.
i miss the way you stare.
bubububbububububububu i dont wanna talk about him but it just
comes like omfggg i cant stop thinking of him.



:(

):


:)

(:

im happy aye... - awkward silence says no.




- i love the way you stare, even if you dont care. (8)))) ' ;/
i mixx yuh, babe please come back to me!!!!!! lol


my love is deep,
its not small
and it doesnt go quick.


... isnt it really weird when people change and they
get REALLY hot when they get older?
its like omfg you look so hoooot and you used to look shit.








PENIS PENIS PENIS@
WHAAAAT/?////?? AT 21:47PM ON TV A PENIS???
THATS WHY THE LITTLE KIDS ALL KNOW WHAT SEX MEANS
ALREADY
BECAUSE
PEOPLE KEEP SHOWING PENISES ON TV AT 21:47, NO LIKE
IM WATCHING THAT SHIT ON TV morri/

i dont know what to do with my life anymore
i hate my mum.
i hate my dad.
i hate my ''friends''.
i hate everything.
except chris.
it sucks when you only have one reason to live,
and that reason wants you to die.
it sucks.










i loved you once,
i love you still.
i always have and i always will.















i think i might die.
because without you i rather cry.









you showed me perfection,
i showed you love.
you didnt want love,
so you took from me the perfection,
but i left with you my love.







i bet one day the stars will come down,
that day you will see me and notice what you lost.




















i think i'm gonna cry,
because i know i wanna die.
















you were everything to me,
i was one of the girls to you,
you still are everything to me,
now i am the worse person in the world for you.











i liked when you said you loved me,
i didnt like when i found out it wasnt true.

















one of the differences between boys and girls is,
that girls have feelings, boys have lies.









i wanted you to show me your love.














i gave you my heart!
NOW GIVE IT BACK DICKHEAD!?














Thank you guys, i hope you like it. xo

it hurts
it sucks
it hurts me so bad to know that i love someone who doesnt give
a shit about me,
it makes me cry so much
i dont know what to do right?
PLEASE GOD MAKE ME GO TO INNES'S HOUSE AND
SEE CHRIS ON THE BUS.
pleeeeeeease and he will see me and he will be like OMG I STIL
LOVE HER!
pleeeeaase do that !
i miss your smile seriously i miss you so much
there is only one thing i care about and its you ):



i wanted to know sometimes what people think about me and
about what i do,
like i wanted to know if they hate me or if
they like me or if they love me,
because i just wish i knew if people think im pretty or
not, i dont think im pretty
but like some ppl do its weird.. anyway im listening to
hero by mariah carey and
im actually listening to all of her depressed songs haah
and im picturing one day
me and innes talking on the bus and chris like next to us listening
to all but not talking to us and me not looking at him and
him thinking '' omg why is she
so awesome and perfect? '' haha .. god please make
this moment be true :P lols



ps: I LOVE NOTEPAD! lol l l l l l l l l its awesome D:

btw i need to go to the toilet DDD: brb

back, omggg im having diahea lol i shudnt say that but idc :S lol.

i need a boyfriend! seriously, maybe if i find the perfect
boyfriend i would forget ----- ?

yeah.. like idk :s lol i was watching tv and there is that
guy that reminds me of that person
SOOOOOOO MUCH! and that guy is like sooooooooooooo
cute like that person, i just felt like
hugging the tv :( seriously if my mum wasnt next to me
i would hug the tv D: lol
sad i know ahahaha . i just wish he could hug meeeeeeeeeeeee
and love meeeee and aaaaaaaaarg ):

we belong together (8) awwwwwwwwww. that was sweet
i know lol ):
i thought anyguy would like a perfect girlfriend, but he doesnt..
so he is gay? or he is a girl ? :/ lol


hehe, i think if i dont talk about him i wont like him ? :S
its confusing how much i feel inside for
hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiim <3
i know i belong with him and he belongs with me!!!!!!!!111111111
11111 okkkkkkk he does, he is mine, he needs
to cry for me, he needs to feel love for me!
he needs to feel sorry for everything he did ):




i loved him so much ..........he didnt love me ...
like at alllllll DDDDD:





10 things i hate about you.

I HATE YOUR HAIR
I HATE YOUR EYES
I HATE YOUR MOUTH
I HATE YOUR FACE.
I HATE THE WAY YOU DRESS.
I HATE THE WAY YOU WERE TO ME.
I HATE THE WAY YOU LIE TO ME.
I HATE THE WAY YOU PLAYED WITH ME.
I HATE THE WAY YOU ACT.
I HATE THE WAY YOU ARE!














.. and i hate loving you even if i know
that i hate the way you are and the way you act i still love you.

you wanna play cool but you're loosing me...

no feelings...

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
You: hey
You: do you have feelings
You: ?
Stranger: um
Stranger: yeah
You: did you ever trully love?
Stranger: yes
You: are you m or f?
Stranger: male
You: how old?
Stranger: 18
You: do you have a girlfriend?
You: >.>]
Stranger: yeah
You: :D
You: whats your name?
Stranger: richard
You: awesome, im gonna post this on my blog now lol say hey
You: >.>
Your conversational partner has disconnected.

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beautiful girls are all over the world..

eu queria meus sonhos para serem de verdade, porque neles você sempre está me abraçando mas eu acordo e escuto tu me odiando.