that retard life!

i dont know what to write anymore, like omgggg i keep writting about him but i dont want to and i dont

mean to :(

like, its weird how much i love him, sometimes i get crazy,

sometimes i cry and it makes me sad it makes me feel bad you know..

its like, he doesnt care at all, he acts like i dont mean anything and i actually dont mean anything to himmm :(

i think he hates me,

but he doesnt have reasons to!

he doesnt need to make me feel bad just because he is feeling bad.

i cant sleep i cant just live my life again!

i cant have my friends back

and i have no idea how i left my friends just because of a guy!

I CANT BELIEVE HOW MUCH HE MEANS TO ME

I HAVE NO IDEA WHY BUT I KNOW HE MEANS MORE THAN ANYTHING

i know he is not mine but i know he needs to be!

its like that! he needs to be mine and he needs to love me!

thats why we were born, to love eachother........... ):

please YOU love me!

i beg you

i do anything you want

i already did anything to have you but u didnt want me!

whats wrong with me aye

i dont know.. i really dont know whats wrong with me,..

i just know that im annoying for you

im ugly for you

im not enough for you

im stupid for you

im useless for you

im everything as bad as it can be for you!

why cant you see me? why cant you just love me backkkkk, thats all i ever wanted, to see you smilling and

looking at me and saying '' i love you '' and i would know you mean it!

but you cant, you wont, and you dont want to .

you dont love me for some reason

im not ugly, there is millions of people out there uglier than me!

im not annoying, there is lots of people who say im not!

im not perfect, i know im not, no one is perfect but please dont be perfectionist

I LOVE YOU.

PLEASE LOVE ME

please please please!

boy please be mine!

just please give me a hug

just please give me your loveeeeeeeee,

thats all i want,

i want your love and i want it now

i wanna love you i wanna kiss you i wanna hug you i wanna touch you

anything for you

whenever

wherever

however........................

im feeling sad inside now,

its your fault and please talk to me

please dont ignore me,

last week i had a fight with my mum and i went running to the bathroom and i really was gonna cut myself

so my mum just went inside and started yelling at me

it sucks that i know i didnt want to die because of my fights with my mum

i wanted to die because.......... because........ i just.. i dont know

maybe god just said '' you need to love him, but he doesnt love you and you will die for it '' ????

well i dont think god would do that

maybe god said '' you will love him, he wont love you but one day he will notice how important you are and he will

ask everyday himself why he didnt love you when you loved him ''

well.. i would like god to say that aye

but i dont think he did

i dont know ok im confused im sad im afraid and im afraid of love, i notice that love can do anything, it changes ANYTHING

it makes u sad and makes u happy, it makes you shy it makes you cry, it makes you smile and it stays for a while.

i wanna see you, just seeing you would make me happpppppy. :(

i dont know what to do, gosh, please god help me! i dont wanna cry i dont wanna feel sad anymore!

PLEASE MAKE HIM LIKE ME, GOD PLEEEEEEASE MAKE HIM NOTICE THAT IM THE ONE FOR HIM!

MAKE HIM THINK ABOUT ME THE WHOLE NIGHT TODAY

AND MAKE HIM LOVE ME !

MAKE HIM CRAZY ABOUT ME

PLEEEEASE MAKE HIM LOVE ME

I NEED HIM TO BE MINE

OR I CAN EVEN DIE.

i wasnt eating sometime ago, now i cant stop eating.

my mum said im suicidle and i said no im not and she said yes you are and you're depressed and i was like wth?

and she said that im getting depressed and she doesnt know why but she noticed it.

im scared, god, im really sad, because i feel like i wanna die and i dont want to, i dont know, its confusing

sometimes im happy but then i think about him and everything goes sad,

everything gets mad

everything sucks.

i need help, i need help from my friends, my parents, everything

because i know im getting sick im getting sick of my sadness im getting sick of being sick

i dont wanna LOVE!

I REALLY WANT TO STOP LOVING!

LOVING MAKES ME SICK!

IT MAKES ME EAT MUCH

AND SOMETIMES MAKES ME STAY WITHOUT EATING FOR DAYS

I CAN DIE

I CAN CRY

I CAN TRY

AND IT WONT WORK!

listening to sad music and thinking about him i do all the time!

its not normal, its REALLY bad, pleeeeease help me pleaaaaasseeee make him look at me and say '' i think i love her ''

make him fall for me!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

PLEASE

ill do anything for it

ill never yell at anyone !

ill never have fights with my mum

ill be perfect at school

i wont do anything wrong

i wont lie i wont cry

i just want him to be mine

please make my wish be true

please make him mine

its all i want

and if u make him mine ill be the happiest girl ever

ill be like seriously REALLY happy,

you dont know how much i love him its crazy its stupid its weird its DIFFERENT.

its not a crush, its not a summer love, its not love, its like when you can do anything for someone

and its true

i MEAN IT

i really mean it

like, you know when you feel sad for no reason and then you start crying and still think its for no reason

but then your heart beats and says someones name?

then you get like ooooh i think thats why im crying, im crying because of him.

i want to be perfect i think, maybe if im perfect he will like me :(

you and me make everything perfect, pleeeeeeeease BE MINE,

ill die for you

if you want me to.

i can do anything for you

and i mean it

its everything for me

everything for me is you

and you are everything,

i bet i love you more than your mum does haha i love you more than anything :(

its not funny, its not to make anyone laugh reading this, its really serious, its bad really bad its like

when you want to die.

i cant change my love for you, i cant just say '' i dont love him anymore '' because I DO!

and i said i wouldnt like you anymore more than 120000000000000 million times and it didnt work.

i never thought i would love,

i never thought i would know what love meant,

but now i do, and its weird, because its a feeling that can change anything you know,

its like when someone means everything to you,

and that person sometimes loves you but this love is not big its not enough to you,

its sad when you love, to me its like dying, loving is a different way of saying dying,

why am i in tears? i just need you here

i just need your love more than anything,

words cant describe everything i feel and felt for you

its like the BIGGEST LOVE ever.

its! seriously you mean anything to me

if someone asked me what i most loved in the whole world i would say '' my parents of course '' but i actually

would say your name, if i could, if i wasnt embarrassed to say it.

god, what do i do??????

please tell me what to do!

please change his mind

HE LOVES ME

HE WILL LOVE ME TOMORROW

HE WILL LOVE ME FROM TONIGHT TO FOREVER

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